I released an EP on Spotify and other streaming services 2019. Now they are only available on SoundCloud. It was my first music project and I learned a lot from it. I wrote these songs before I knew about my Neurodivergence and the lyrics are about some of my experiences. I practiced producing music and I did everything by myself with very basic gear and bad recording conditions because I didn't have a professional studio but the point with this music project was to learn and understand what I need to improve on and how to know what techniques and approaches to have. Thinking back on the process, I was too scared, impatient and insecure to express myself and I changed many things. With my next music project I will trust my intuition and believe in myself. I will try som experimental approaches and new ways of writing songs and I will have more fun and do what I feel like doing without worrying so much about what people will think. I will focus on my main skills which are singing and writing lyrics.
I was a member of a songwriting group called Song a Week that included musicians and songwriters from all around the world in 2018. The challenge was to write and make a melody for a song every week, but I was so eager to learn how to produce a whole song and I had too much pressure on myself to be good. This is something I find very difficult but I've learned from my mistakes and this was mainly to have a community and to make music. These songs are demos and there are many parts that can be improved, considering the time limit we had to write our songs, it's an achievement to me because I was so new at making music and I had not produced that much before. I had written songs but that was a form of processing for me and I was working on improving my songwriting skills. I had so much support and it was amazing but I didn't have enough time to continue and that's making me sad. I loved the experience and I got to communicate with other people who share my passion and they are very talented and skilled. I will try to create something similar but with more guidance and support. I think it's fun to listen to the demos I made because I remember how it was and how passionate I felt with every song I wrote. There are so many things I could do to make the songs better and that's the point with this project, I learned how to make demos in a healthy way and not doing too much, it gave me the insight to have a realistic approach and to understand that I'm improving and the most important thing is to have passions and to express yourself. The vocals on these songs are not great, I forced myself to make up melodies but I didn't have time to practice singing them so it's a combination of free styling and already made structures. That's something that is fun but there are different ways to make your vocals sound good and how to produce the vocals. So these songs are not meant to sound great because I didn't have the possibility to focus on the vocals.